i've been feeling some... sadness lately. i've been reflecting a lot on my life- what i have done in the past, what i am doing now, and what i hope to do in the future... the thing is, i don't know that i'm all too happy about it. i feel almost lost as to how and why i ended up here- and whether or not i'm in the place i need to be in.
i'm sure it's an aspect of getting older, but i'm realizing my youth is slipping away. i know, i KNOW- i'm so old at all of 27... the thing is, though: im 27... i can't make the same mistakes i made at 21. or 19. or, gasp! 15. and i'm not ready for that. i feel as if i still NEED to make some naive mistakes. maybe it's because i feel regret for the mistakes i DID make. there's definitely a few "do-over" moments in my past- although, i'm not really sure how i would have done it over... because some of those things were beyond my control.
i don't know what i'm getting at, or if this even makes sense. but i just wanted to get it out there. am i crazy? maybe you've felt this way too?
maybe i'm just having a pity party?
i don't know but seriously:
it's hard growing up /:
i don't know but seriously:
it's hard growing up /:
on a slightly different note:
i'm currently reading Little Women.
it's such a lovely book (:
i remember watching the winona ryder movie over
and over
and over again
when i was younger.
when i was younger.
and guess what folks?
the movie was on tv the other night!!!!!!!
so i recorded it.
and watched it.
four times.
and i've done the ugly cry face all four times...
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6 comments:
Totally makes sense because I'm 28. And last year seemed like THE year for these feelings. As I'm working on my book too and pulling from my blog a year or two ago, this us so much if what I'm seeing and remembering and writing. It's hard. But I'm happy to know that it's relatable to someone. :)
this happens to me at least every other year. so please know that you arent alone. it's a part of growing up. even if you arent ready to yet. :]
I call this the quarter life crisis, that is, given we'll live to be over 100... but you know what I mean. I think it tends to happen to everyone between 25 and 30. I'm inching on 30 and still have times where I think Oh my goooooooooodddd what am I doing with my life? I think it's perfectly normal and you'll probably push through it after time.
My dad has always said, you spend your 20s thinking you have it all figured out, your 30s realizing you don't have anything figured out, your 40s figuring it out, your 50s doing what you figured out and your 60s finally relaxing because you realize you don't have to have it all figured out (or so he's been told about the 60s part).
It does seem that somewhere near the end of your 20s you begin to realize that you were wrong in thinking you had it all figured out and hence the mini-mid-life-crisis. Just remember life is a journey, trust the journey and enjoy the ride. Never regret anything in your past, they are all lessons (good and bad) that has shaped you into who you are and who you will be. Never let a mistake define you - "It" does not make it "you" - keep the it and you separated.
Relax and enjoy this time, you'll never have this moment again, embrace it and make the most of it.
"She stood in the storm and when the wind did not blow her way, she adjusted the sails"
That is all
Did you take this post out of my mind? I'm totally having the "I'm not getting any younger... it's about time I did something with myself" quarter life crisis.
And a note on Little Women. I read it for the first time when I was in elementary school. I'm actually re-reading it right now! I love the movie but the book is so... well, innocent. I love it. Enjoy it! I would love to see what you think about it versus the movie!
I'm just now reading this and it sure speaks to me! After turning 27 not even two weeks ago, 27 is hitting me pretty hard. For the same reasons you mentioned. I feel like I still need to make mistakes, I'm still "getting my life together," I'm still learning, but I know I don't have all that time that I used to.
It can definitely be sad and leave you feeling lost at times. And, unfortunately, I don't think there's anything we can really say to keep ourselves from feeling that way. It's life. Just know you're not alone :) xo
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